I asked my deck about my development in nursing and received A Leg Up (Reversed) but felt the prosperity meaning (career) as well as the protection meaning (for reversed cards) meant something to me – seeking advice from a mentor who has been where I want to be (i have 2 in mind), who I would like help from. Help is available to me and will be there. Delegate authority, i don’t have to do anything by mself – I have a team to help me (if I can just stop stressing out and pushing them away because of my expressing my stress) if only i have trust and faith. I can not and do not have to do this by myself, this belief i have to is actually hindering me. Admitting I need help makes me vulnerable but here lies my lesson. Shift my belief and expectation and watch me go!
In November 2011 I started my spiritual journey. I have learnt much and enjoyed the journey. Learning from lots of sources and revisiting old interests as well as learning new things.
Felt like I was moving on, clicking, resonating and really going forward.
Now I am stuck.
Feel lost again.
And not sure which way to turn.
It is so strange and quite frustrating.
Maybe I have took in too much but nothing in much depth.
I think I have found things I want to learn in depth but can’t concentrate on them.
I am no longer sure who or what I am or what I want.
I am more in touch with my shadow self lately. I can’t ignore it and must accept it.
I am not a perfect human being and nor am I meant to be.
It feels like there is a purpose to this whole feeling though.
To feel lost and begin again.
To turn inward and find myself and who I am.
One moment at a time. No expectation. Going with the flow.
I am asking for signs and will go where I am guided in the time that is meant.
No more pushing. No more expecting.
Divine Spirit please show me a sign of what I need to know next.
I trust and accept.