I asked my deck about my development in nursing and received A Leg Up (Reversed) but felt the prosperity meaning (career) as well as the protection meaning (for reversed cards) meant something to me – seeking advice from a mentor who has been where I want to be (i have 2 in mind), who I would like help from. Help is available to me and will be there. Delegate authority, i don’t have to do anything by mself – I have a team to help me (if I can just stop stressing out and pushing them away because of my expressing my stress) if only i have trust and faith. I can not and do not have to do this by myself, this belief i have to is actually hindering me. Admitting I need help makes me vulnerable but here lies my lesson. Shift my belief and expectation and watch me go!
Last night I was laying in bed and fretting about work as I normally do when my mind was taken to what has happened to my career over the past few months and I was hit by grief. I felt utter sadness and pain at the loss of stability and happiness.
I didn’t know what to do with myself but instead of blocking it out and distracting myself I decided to really feel the sensations my body was having.
I allowed myself to feel my heart, throat and solar plexus – the heaviness and the pull. The unexplainable sensations were felt deeply and completely….
And then I called on the Angels and asked them for help…….. my breathing slowed
and then the pain was gone, I felt peace and my mind was calm.
I slept well.
Thank you Angels x
I waited until my day was nearly over and looked back at these (19th July 2013). I am going to start doing daily draws as often as possible so I can make sense of the meanings of the cards for me personally.
The WHIP/broom was about an argument between me and my husband (Whip) and the clearing up of it (broom). We also had little misunderstandings as the heat of the day got to us but we always got over them quickly. Ah getting over them quickly – now the CLOVER card is a short time card – making perfect sense now.
The CLOVER card, which is little luck or happy news/ a surprise, could have been either asking for a sign from my granddad (he passed away in January of this year and he has sent us 2 signs in 2 days now and I have just realised the clover is the number 2 card haha) – whether to stay in St Albans or go home as it was so hot. I said “Granddad please show us a sign if its time to go home or stay – to show us a shop me and Dan would both like.” This would mean for us to stay – as it happened we found no such shop but did look in the tourist info shop and saw what used to be a court room in there. We sat in there for a bit then went to find our bus stop, we sat down and wondered on a few things then the bus came straight away – brilliant timing.
Or it could have been that when we went to the cinema that night I had a nice surprise that my best mate from my old ward also came to see the same film at the same time with her mum.
The CLOUDS – the light side faced me and meant a good ending but also means clarity – now the dark side means confusions, complications and danger – this was facing away from me so in light of what I now know, I know it meant danger, complications for another poor soul – and confusion for the public. . .
There are a few tall buildings in my home town centre that are infamous for people committing suicide from and that night there was a man sitting on the edge of one of these with the roads blocked off by the police and the public standing there gawping at the poor man. I don’t agree with suicide but do believe he must be in such a bad state and was crying out for help – I don’t believe he was serious in completely ending it otherwise he would not have hesitated. After the cinema the roads were unblocked but there was a yellow helicopter in the square so don’t quite know what happened. But still disturbed at the sheer amount of people who stood and gawped, some with their phones out. I found out today that the man died. He must not have died straight away.
On the way home in a taxi, I was mesmerised by the moon and it looked more beautiful then this picture I took about half hour to an hour later.
In the taxi I was relaxing and taking deep breaths and allowed the moon to influence my thoughts and feelings which went something along the lines of this following short word brainstorm ….
3/4 moon, nearly full. halo. ring. clouds see through/transparent. light. illuminating. round. cover. hug. caring. beautiful. breath taking.
I feel this moon is a time to be able to see what exists from a different point of view, the ability to put yourself above and see beauty from a different angle.
Mother Moon. feminine. nurturing. caring.
I prayed to the angels to help a relative(s) of mine and allow tomorrow to be a point of breakthrough…
I believe this moon also heralds a time of breakthroughs and help. The moon and the angels message to us all is to reach out and ask for help, not to suffer and suffer alone.