I asked my deck about my development in nursing and received A Leg Up (Reversed) but felt the prosperity meaning (career) as well as the protection meaning (for reversed cards) meant something to me – seeking advice from a mentor who has been where I want to be (i have 2 in mind), who I would like help from. Help is available to me and will be there. Delegate authority, i don’t have to do anything by mself – I have a team to help me (if I can just stop stressing out and pushing them away because of my expressing my stress) if only i have trust and faith. I can not and do not have to do this by myself, this belief i have to is actually hindering me. Admitting I need help makes me vulnerable but here lies my lesson. Shift my belief and expectation and watch me go!
Written on 5th May 2016:
I received the Wisdom of the Oracle deck by Collette Baron-Reid from my in-laws for my birthday and I sent Reiki to the deck to cleanse them and drew my first card for myself and it was perfect.
I have an urgent sense of rushing to get things done and to be honest it stresses me out, puts me on edge and makes me a not very nice person – snappy and impatient when I should be calm and mature, dealing with issues calmly, it brings up a lot of guilt and it is a vicious cycle by putting more pressure on myself.
So this card is saying patience is the key – slow down and trust – BREATHE, allow air to energise me. Also get the need for air in the literal sense, I am lacking fresh air because i stay inside all the time, and get too comfortable (stems back from depression phases). I am debating whether to go for a walk right now and find myself making excuses lol, but I think I will…. so a walk in nature here I come….
As I am doing my self treatment I see and feel energy rotating slowly as I and it goes round it becomes bright white, becoming brighter and brighter as we continue to turn.
As we complete the full rotation I am starting to lean back and begin to see leaves and diamonds from the centre rise up and I continue to go down so the stream of leaves and diamonds gets longer the more i go down.
On the way down I see a female and I go within her, become her but continue to travel downward.
As I continue down it becomes like an energy whirl with blue tones, against the backdrop of space.
The energy whirl becomes a ball with a gold hue to it and I begin to sense I am to channel healing to certain people, places.
Someone in particular comes to mind and I send this ball of energy to him and I let it be natural, i fling the whole thing over him and trust that is meant to be.
I become aware of my neighbours and an image of a brown energy container which emits olive green energy is attached to the wall next to me and this is how the energy will go through the wall. The energy spreads along the whole wall and penetrates through, I see it travel through their space and on through the next two houses that are attached.
Then the building of my previous place of work, which holds elderly people dealing with mental health issues such as schizophrenia, bipolar and depression, comes to view and I see this same energy container with the olive green energy attach to the roof of the building and i see it go through that building and spread onto the memory clinic next door and the dementia unit next to that.
There was more to the session but these were the main visions I am amazed by x
This past week I have been seeing things out of the corner of my eye.
The other night I was walking past a side room and saw a figure leaning over a patient’s bed, at first I thought it was one of the nurses in there checking something but as I stepped back to look again there was no one else there. The pt has learning disabilities and is usually shouting and crying out in frustration but that night she was pale but very calm and awake. In the end I told a colleague what I had seen and she checked in there too then I tried to rationalise it by saying it was the shadow in the wall but I do believe I saw a person bending over the bed.
Then two nights ago I see, out of the corner of my eye, a white thing move. My dog was in her crate and began moving, making a noise hence why my peripheral vision was in that direction and at the same time i see the white movement.
I am kind of enjoying all these changes happening to me since learning reiki and I did do a reiki sandwhich for mediumship and have been requesting a strengthening of psychic gifts =)
“Help me……, please, I beg you ……….”
Adam stirred from a long ago memory, faded but not forgotten. He realised where he was and what he had to do. Facing him was a beautiful lady with a tear rolling down her face, her eyes so deep and blue, he was mesmerized…. She looked so much like….. no! he could not and would not think of that now.
Adam spoke softly to the woman, “I promise you, I will do everything in my power to help you resolve this. Surrender your concerns to me.” She nodded and slowly turned and walked on.
Adam knew he had to keep this promise, he wanted to…. he needed to.
He could not stop the past coming back to haunt his waking thoughts, and as much as he had spent his life trying to make up for his past actions, it never left him. She would not leave his mind nor his heart.
The time had come to lay his ghosts to rest…
Being back here gave him a sense of comfort and familiarity. This was home to him in many ways and he knew he made the right decision to come back.
A soft pressure came to rest on his back and as he turned around, his mother smiled and stood beside him in a silence, he knew she understood his need to return.
And he felt her calm knowing reach out to him. He had no need to say anything and nor did she.
Later, Adam and his mother were sat at the table, they had eaten and were ready to talk about the real issue, out in the open.
“Adam, you know that you can only run away from your heart for so long, there comes a time when you must stop struggling and face your demons once and for all”
He looked down and whispered, “I know Mum. The time is now and I am ready.”
With her hand on his shoulder, she said “Come, there is work to do and balance to gain.”
He stood and allowed her to lead him to the room he spent his childhood and teenage years in. It looked different but still familiar and inviting. There was a table to lie on with sheets and pillows, soft music playing, candle light and the scent of roses and oranges.
She guided him to the table and he made himself comfortable.
His mother told him; “Adam, drink this, lay back and focus on your breath, listen to the sounds around you and allow your minds eye to reveal what needs to be shown.”
He drank the warm, syrupy liquid and felt the heat travel down his throat. He laid back and felt slightly woozy but enjoyed the sensation. As he breathed in and out, his muscles relaxed and he felt lighter as if his body did not exist…
Colours came and went, flashes of memories came in and out of his vision and then faded. He was in a garden with grass a lush green and the sky the purest of blues. The sun was warm and energising. Birds singing their song and laughter… much laughter, Adam could feel the higher vibration here and he felt euphoric and at ease.
As he looked toward the sound of laughter, his heart soared……. there she was, his true love, the other half to his soul. She was breathtakingly beautiful and so happy….
She looked him in his eyes and stopped her dance. She began to walk toward him and smiled.
As she came near, she reached out and touched his heart, keeping her hand there until the heat was incredible, he felt as one with her and knew she was truly happy and had no ounce of regret or disappointment for him. Just pure love.
Then she placed he finger to his lips and spoke…
“What happened that day had to happen as it did, there was nothing you could have done to stop it. Many events were able to happen because of that day, things that have helped restore humanity.
Never feel guilty for that, it is time to accept and embrace the past.
I am with you always, I am there every step of the way, for every decision you make and I celebrate your achievements with you. I am there when you are alone and down, I will never leave you.
You must go on with a clear conscious, your future and the future of your people depend on your total focus.
There will be many challenges ahead and you will successfully pass all of them… with me by your side.”
And then he was moving backwards, more colours appeared and this time visions of the future flashed by.
He heard his mother say his name quietly and again he focused on his breathing and felt his body become heavier.
Slowly he came to and opened his eyes.
“It is done, Mum. I can move on and focus without the past tormenting me. I release the past with love.
Mum Caroline is with me always.”
“I know son.”
It has been 25 years since that day Caroline appeared to him and many things have happened to Adam and his Kingdom, it has made him the strong leader he is today. His focus is sharp, ambition strong and ability unrivalled. He is fully in touch with and master of his emotions. He knows the way of his land and the ways of his people intuitively.
His Empress and Son are nearby and he thinks to the future where his son leads this Kingdom and he smiles, there is no better choice.
He turns to his Empress and looks deep into her blue eyes, remembering the day he met her when he made her a promise.
And that promise was kept.
From 7th March
Well that was interesting, I have just completed another Reiki self session and have to admit I didnt get much in the way of visions this time, I was distracted by our dog and the music I chose this time round was annoying me lol, I felt the energy mostly at the end in my feet. I was basically so distracted my eyes were open at least half the time and I was getting annoyed by our dog as I said. All in all it was a failure I thought.
As I finished and got up, I put the dog outside and my husband says to me “Every time you do reiki near me I get really really hot.” He said he was almost sweating and now I had finished he was cooling down.
So maybe not a total failure lol x