Sometimes I sit and read things, like the Sunday Mirror (UK) supplement magazine “Justice on Trial” and find myself getting angry at how things are in this country. How the public have to fund something we don’t always agree with and often despair of and complain about. Our opinions and voices do not matter to those who have power and make decisions.
I find myself reading this supplement and thinking yes that is terrible and disgraceful and clearly does not work as it is.
There is an odd comment in there by a QC, how we have been lied to about the cost of legal aid and he hopes we would take to the streets in anger and outrage, not only is his comment unhelpful, what good would it do?
Like all moaning and b!tching, it gets us nowhere.
Its all well and good stating what is wrong with the world and how terrible it is but I want to know how it can be improved, I want paths of action, ways to contribute. I want to know what will work and sadly, this supplement does not address this for the average individual, the average person who is not in the know, does not know the ways of this minefield that is the system.
If we want change, how is the best way to go about it? What can be done?
I asked my cards: “How can we fight for justice?”
Imagination, Awaken, Silence & Act
In life we encounter difficulties, it challenges us to think outside the box, use our Imagination and go far beyond our limits. We need to Awaken to different possibilities, be open to what they may be and then look for signs to guide us. In our Silence and meditation we will connect, we will receive the answers, ways & opportunities that we can Act on. When faith and action are combined we have the power to charge forward.
To help bring change.
Not to look good but to balance my hormones. To stop the ugly effects of Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. To hopefully conceive again.
Losing weight is not easy contrary to what some people think, say and judge about it. It is not just about dropping weight and not being greedy. It is more than that – it is about change long held beliefs, learned behaviour, and re-programming emotional coping mechanisms – how is that easy?
It is daunting and means coming out of my comfort zone and confronting things I have pushed into my subconscious. I am scared and overwhelmed.
And this discomfort is what I have to embrace in order to move on and change everything I know, everything I currently am.
The same old, same old.
It has not left me.
But have I really tried?
Have I really committed to change?
Plainly and simply I have not tried. Not truly.
Just brushed it under the carpet.
Pretending I can do better next time. Laying dormant, sleeping.
And next time comes and it’s still there. It rears it ugly head, grows and grows until it explodes.
I know it, I feel it and then I don’t care and don’t even bother to stop it.
It explodes and leaves devastation, perhaps even consequences I am even unaware of.
Unhealthy for all.
It will go on and on. If I let it.
I have the power to stop it.
I truly do.
One day I will use my heart and my brain together.
One day I will change because I realise I can’t do it this way any more.
I am too tired doing it this way.
I feel exhausted at my way all the time, even when I am at supposed peace.
I still feel that tiredness even now.
That day is coming. I know it is.
My reaction to the same old, same old is going to change.
Because in my heart I am ready.
In November 2011 I started my spiritual journey. I have learnt much and enjoyed the journey. Learning from lots of sources and revisiting old interests as well as learning new things.
Felt like I was moving on, clicking, resonating and really going forward.
Now I am stuck.
Feel lost again.
And not sure which way to turn.
It is so strange and quite frustrating.
Maybe I have took in too much but nothing in much depth.
I think I have found things I want to learn in depth but can’t concentrate on them.
I am no longer sure who or what I am or what I want.
I am more in touch with my shadow self lately. I can’t ignore it and must accept it.
I am not a perfect human being and nor am I meant to be.
It feels like there is a purpose to this whole feeling though.
To feel lost and begin again.
To turn inward and find myself and who I am.
One moment at a time. No expectation. Going with the flow.
I am asking for signs and will go where I am guided in the time that is meant.
No more pushing. No more expecting.
Divine Spirit please show me a sign of what I need to know next.
I trust and accept.