Ok, I need to do a huge catch up with this challenge.
So for day one the question is:
Where in my life am I suffering?
I drew Milk & Honey in the protection position (reversed).
“A nameless unease compels you to turn to pleasure and comfort as a means to escape what is really going on.”
This is incredibly true – I have this permanent feeling of being on edge and very anxious and I mean it when I say it never leaves me. It drives my actions, every negative thing I think, say and do is based on this feeling.
I do try to escape this fear through all sorts, mainly my phone/facebook groups but I never escape it. It is a continuous struggle to stay calm and centred because it does effect every area of my life.
My negative actions do make me feel guilty.
I have no idea of the cause or how to address it.
The guide book says I need to practice self care, have compassion and love for myself To turn to Spirit and hand my troubles over to them for Divine healing.
I decided to ask my deck;
What do I need to know to successfully become pregnant?
I receive Fork in the Road and tells me I have to make a decision to go forward one way or another.
To not make a decision is also a decision.
So I know that I can either go on the way I am – continue eating junk, not lose weight, not go back to the Dr’s, not take metformin, not attempt to take clomid to ovulate.
Or I can clean up my act and do all of the above plus Reiki, meditation more regularly etc
Either choice has it’s own set of lessons and therefore no decision is wrong.
I asked my deck about my development in nursing and received A Leg Up (Reversed) but felt the prosperity meaning (career) as well as the protection meaning (for reversed cards) meant something to me – seeking advice from a mentor who has been where I want to be (i have 2 in mind), who I would like help from. Help is available to me and will be there. Delegate authority, i don’t have to do anything by mself – I have a team to help me (if I can just stop stressing out and pushing them away because of my expressing my stress) if only i have trust and faith. I can not and do not have to do this by myself, this belief i have to is actually hindering me. Admitting I need help makes me vulnerable but here lies my lesson. Shift my belief and expectation and watch me go!
Written on 5th May 2016:
I received the Wisdom of the Oracle deck by Collette Baron-Reid from my in-laws for my birthday and I sent Reiki to the deck to cleanse them and drew my first card for myself and it was perfect.
I have an urgent sense of rushing to get things done and to be honest it stresses me out, puts me on edge and makes me a not very nice person – snappy and impatient when I should be calm and mature, dealing with issues calmly, it brings up a lot of guilt and it is a vicious cycle by putting more pressure on myself.
So this card is saying patience is the key – slow down and trust – BREATHE, allow air to energise me. Also get the need for air in the literal sense, I am lacking fresh air because i stay inside all the time, and get too comfortable (stems back from depression phases). I am debating whether to go for a walk right now and find myself making excuses lol, but I think I will…. so a walk in nature here I come….
Your weekly reading from 10th – 16th August 2015.
Monday 10th & Tuesday 11th August
~ STAR ~
Now is the time to go after what you want but be prepared to work hard for it. Have faith in yourself and what you do. You will experience fast change so if you see an opportunity, don’t let it pass by.
Wednesday 12th & Thursday 13th August
~ SUN ~
Things will start to become more clear as these changes begin to happen.
You will become the centre of attention and receive acknowledgement for the work you have done so far.
Friday 14th, Saturday 15th and Sunday 17th August
~ RINGS ~
A celebration of a contract or agreement shows you that you are supported by those around you.
14th May 2015
You are at a point now where you find synchronistic opportunities to form a partnership and contacts that will boost your success.
Be mindful though that these relationships remain balanced, both must give and take in equal measures otherwise your energy will be depleted and that of any future success.
Last night I was laying in bed and fretting about work as I normally do when my mind was taken to what has happened to my career over the past few months and I was hit by grief. I felt utter sadness and pain at the loss of stability and happiness.
I didn’t know what to do with myself but instead of blocking it out and distracting myself I decided to really feel the sensations my body was having.
I allowed myself to feel my heart, throat and solar plexus – the heaviness and the pull. The unexplainable sensations were felt deeply and completely….
And then I called on the Angels and asked them for help…….. my breathing slowed
and then the pain was gone, I felt peace and my mind was calm.
I slept well.
Thank you Angels x
I subscribed to the UK magazine Soul & Spirit the other day and was very pleased to see the gift for subscribing was the Talking to Heaven mediumship cards by Doreen Virtue & James Van Praagh. I love collecting my decks
Last night I looked at my photo of my Grandad and asked him to come through.
When I was little, my Grandad was “Big Grandad” and his Dad/my Great Grandad was known as “Little Grandad” because he was shorter.
So my question to Grandad was; “Are you with your Dad – Big Grandad & Little Grandad?”
As I was shuffling 2 cards jumped out together and I set them aside to the left and then pulled the “answer”.
I was shocked and amazed it answered it so perfectly and then I got goosebumps.
He is definitely with his Dad and the rest of the family members I have heard so much about. And clearly they still watch over us and seeing our lives going on and taking direction.