Question: What am I attached to?
I drew: Mending
I am attached to holding on to pain by not fully understanding it and allowing myself to learn from it. I think I have forgiven and moved on for it to come back again at a later time. It is time to mend things for good, for my peace of mind. To heal myself.
How to do this properly is going to be a learning curve and I am sure a lot of inner work and meditation is due.
Ok, I need to do a huge catch up with this challenge.
So for day one the question is:
Where in my life am I suffering?
I drew Milk & Honey in the protection position (reversed).
“A nameless unease compels you to turn to pleasure and comfort as a means to escape what is really going on.”
This is incredibly true – I have this permanent feeling of being on edge and very anxious and I mean it when I say it never leaves me. It drives my actions, every negative thing I think, say and do is based on this feeling.
I do try to escape this fear through all sorts, mainly my phone/facebook groups but I never escape it. It is a continuous struggle to stay calm and centred because it does effect every area of my life.
My negative actions do make me feel guilty.
I have no idea of the cause or how to address it.
The guide book says I need to practice self care, have compassion and love for myself To turn to Spirit and hand my troubles over to them for Divine healing.
Found this challenge on Instagram by ethereal_tarot. I always find these challenges when they are done half way through but I still plan to work my way through it.
I will post separately for each question and the card I receive using Colette Baron-Reid’s Wisdom of the Oracle deck.
I decided to ask my deck;
What do I need to know to successfully become pregnant?
I receive Fork in the Road and tells me I have to make a decision to go forward one way or another.
To not make a decision is also a decision.
So I know that I can either go on the way I am – continue eating junk, not lose weight, not go back to the Dr’s, not take metformin, not attempt to take clomid to ovulate.
Or I can clean up my act and do all of the above plus Reiki, meditation more regularly etc
Either choice has it’s own set of lessons and therefore no decision is wrong.
I asked my deck about my development in nursing and received A Leg Up (Reversed) but felt the prosperity meaning (career) as well as the protection meaning (for reversed cards) meant something to me – seeking advice from a mentor who has been where I want to be (i have 2 in mind), who I would like help from. Help is available to me and will be there. Delegate authority, i don’t have to do anything by mself – I have a team to help me (if I can just stop stressing out and pushing them away because of my expressing my stress) if only i have trust and faith. I can not and do not have to do this by myself, this belief i have to is actually hindering me. Admitting I need help makes me vulnerable but here lies my lesson. Shift my belief and expectation and watch me go!