My Tarot Story – Line of 5

“Help me……, please, I beg you ……….”

Adam stirred from a long ago memory, faded but not forgotten. He realised where he was and what he had to do. Facing him was a beautiful lady with a tear rolling down her face, her eyes so deep and blue, he was mesmerized…. She looked so much like….. no! he could not and would not think of that now.

Adam spoke softly to the woman, “I promise you, I will do everything in my power to help you resolve this. Surrender your concerns to me.” She nodded and slowly turned and walked on.

Adam knew he had to keep this promise, he wanted to…. he needed to.

He could not stop the past coming back to haunt his waking thoughts, and as much as he had spent his life trying to make up for his past actions, it never left him. She would not leave his mind nor his heart.

The time had come to lay his ghosts to rest…

Being back here gave him a sense of comfort and familiarity. This was home to him in many ways and he knew he made the right decision to come back. 

A soft pressure came to rest on his back and as he turned around, his mother smiled and stood beside him in a silence, he knew she understood his need to return.

And he felt her calm knowing reach out to him. He had no need to say anything and nor did she.

Later, Adam and his mother were sat at the table, they had eaten and were ready to talk about the real issue, out in the open.

“Adam, you know that you can only run away from your heart for so long, there comes a time when you must stop struggling and face your demons once and for all”

He looked down and whispered, “I know Mum. The time is now and I am ready.”

With her hand on his shoulder, she said “Come, there is work to do and balance to gain.”

He stood and allowed her to lead him to the room he spent his childhood and teenage years in. It looked different but still familiar and inviting. There was a table to lie on with sheets and pillows, soft music playing, candle light and the scent of roses and oranges.

She guided him to the table and he made himself comfortable.

His mother told him; “Adam, drink this, lay back and focus on your breath, listen to the sounds around you and allow your minds eye to reveal what needs to be shown.”

He drank the warm, syrupy liquid and felt the heat travel down his throat. He laid back and felt slightly woozy but enjoyed the sensation. As he breathed in and out, his muscles relaxed and he felt lighter as if his body did not exist…

Colours came and went, flashes of memories came in and out of his vision and then faded. He was in a garden with grass a lush green and the sky the purest of blues. The sun was warm and energising. Birds singing their song and laughter… much laughter, Adam could feel the higher vibration here and he felt euphoric and at ease.

As he looked toward the sound of laughter, his heart soared……. there she was, his true love, the other half to his soul. She was breathtakingly beautiful and so happy….

She looked him in his eyes and stopped her dance. She began to walk toward him and smiled.

As she came near, she reached out and touched his heart, keeping her hand there until the heat was incredible, he felt as one with her and knew she was truly happy and had no ounce of regret or disappointment for him. Just pure love.

Then she placed he finger to his lips and spoke…

“What happened that day had to happen as it did, there was nothing you could have done to stop it. Many events were able to happen because of that day, things that have helped restore humanity.

Never feel guilty for that, it is time to accept and embrace the past. 

I am with you always, I am there every step of the way, for every decision you make and I celebrate your achievements with you. I am there when you are alone and down, I will never leave you.

You must go on with a clear conscious, your future and the future of your people depend on your total focus.

There will be many challenges ahead and you will successfully pass all of them… with me by your side.”

And then he was moving backwards, more colours appeared and this time visions of the future flashed by. 

He heard his mother say his name quietly and again he focused on his breathing and felt his body become heavier.

Slowly he came to and opened his eyes.

“It is done, Mum. I can move on and focus without the past tormenting me. I release the past with love.

Mum Caroline is with me always.”

“I know son.”


It has been 25 years since that day Caroline appeared to him and many things have happened to Adam and his Kingdom, it has made him the strong leader he is today. His focus is sharp, ambition strong and ability unrivalled. He is fully in touch with and master of his emotions. He knows the way of his land and the ways of his people intuitively.

His Empress and Son are nearby and he thinks to the future where his son leads this Kingdom and he smiles, there is no better choice.

He turns to his Empress and looks deep into her blue eyes, remembering the day he met her when he made her a promise.

And that promise was kept.


Author: staceymariej

32, Wife (married at 19 years old in 2003), Mum of one (born in 2004), Registered Nurse since September 2010. Started spiritual journey in November 2011.

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