Not to look good but to balance my hormones. To stop the ugly effects of Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. To hopefully conceive again.
Losing weight is not easy contrary to what some people think, say and judge about it. It is not just about dropping weight and not being greedy. It is more than that – it is about change long held beliefs, learned behaviour, and re-programming emotional coping mechanisms – how is that easy?
It is daunting and means coming out of my comfort zone and confronting things I have pushed into my subconscious. I am scared and overwhelmed.
And this discomfort is what I have to embrace in order to move on and change everything I know, everything I currently am.