3 Steps Forward Then 5 Steps Back

In November 2011 I started my spiritual journey. I have learnt much and enjoyed the journey. Learning from lots of sources and revisiting old interests as well as learning new things.

Felt like I was moving on, clicking, resonating and really going forward.

Until recently.

Now I am stuck.

Feel lost again.

And not sure which way to turn.

It is so strange and quite frustrating.

Maybe I have took in too much but nothing in much depth. 
I think I have found things I want to learn in depth but can’t concentrate on them.

I am no longer sure who or what I am or what I want.

I am more in touch with my shadow self lately. I can’t ignore it and must accept it.

I am not a perfect human being and nor am I meant to be.

It feels like there is a purpose to this whole feeling though.

To feel lost and begin again.

To turn inward and find myself and who I am.

One moment at a time. No expectation. Going with the flow.

I am asking for signs and will go where I am guided in the time that is meant.

No more pushing. No more expecting.

Divine Spirit please show me a sign of what I need to know next.

I trust and accept.



Author: staceymariej

32, Wife (married at 19 years old in 2003), Mum of one (born in 2004), Registered Nurse since September 2010. Started spiritual journey in November 2011.

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